"Plz.. make me cry..."Ever since my childhood, I've been looking for colorful and happier future... I dint like those days when i cried. Whenever i got a chance, i had cried. Cried for many whole nights... Even at that age i used to think it as silly to cry. But I'm helpless. The only way, i know to express all my feelings is thru' tears.
I cried
- when i was taken to school for the first time. I could still feel the pain of sudden isolation. Every second that passed by looking the classroom window for my rescue from it has taught me the value of patience with tears rolling down....
- when i was beaten for the first time for no mistake i had done (hope there will not be a big criminal to be punished at the age of 5). Since many schools have the objective of mass punishment without making students realize what they have done and they are doing, i'm not an exceptional from our traditional way of schooling. Again with tears rolling down I've learned how world will blame and punish you, even if you are flawless...
- when my parents are not satisfied with my exam performance, discipline or whatsoever. When everyone demanded something from me, i had tears in my eyes which made me understand what the world is expecting from me.
- when i was left in hostel for the first time at the age of 10. I looked for some hands to wipe my tears, some soothing words, someone to caress my head. But everyone was busy with their works to look my tears. With tears i learned that world is really busy to listen your cries. So manage everything yourself.
Like many such instances, with tears I've learned the virtues for my life. Hope tears have so much power in it. Whatever I've learned with tears guided me very properly.
Then there was a sudden transformation in my life. Probably this should be what i must be hoping for so many years with tears. Yeah, these (so called) colorful, prosperous, tear-free (literally) days.. With whatever I'm now, the world is happy with it. I've stopped crying so many days back. All the stubborn attitude so far i gained with my tears is now helping me to face every situation with smile.
My tear-cum-learning logic is blocking me to learn anything further in my life. I feel ignorant without tears. Though I laugh many times a day, my heart wants to cry atleast once. My eyes are looking to grab a situation that makes me cry. All the pains I've gathered in recent days without tears makes my heart heavy. All i wanted is to cry aloud. cry alone. cry till i dry out.
I want the world not to acknowledge my smile, but to ignore my weep.
Then there was a sudden transformation in my life. Probably this should be what i must be hoping for so many years with tears. Yeah, these (so called) colorful, prosperous, tear-free (literally) days.. With whatever I'm now, the world is happy with it. I've stopped crying so many days back. All the stubborn attitude so far i gained with my tears is now helping me to face every situation with smile.
My tear-cum-learning logic is blocking me to learn anything further in my life. I feel ignorant without tears. Though I laugh many times a day, my heart wants to cry atleast once. My eyes are looking to grab a situation that makes me cry. All the pains I've gathered in recent days without tears makes my heart heavy. All i wanted is to cry aloud. cry alone. cry till i dry out.
I want the world not to acknowledge my smile, but to ignore my weep.
Oh my world,
I want to learn a lot...
Please...
Make me CRY.......................
